A diary for my LiTtLe ToTs,Alyssa & Alexis

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Saturday Blue

Wondering why blue is always used to describe sadness. Blue is such a cool colour. Cool should imply passiveness, unemotional and phlematic. I think that's how everything in live is. It is counter balanced, Good vs Bad, Calm vs Violence, Peace vs War, Life vs Death, Gain vs Lose...and the list goes on. I would like to think that the people are still good inside, not really like what the movies depict where the villians are really evil. I like to think that those are just exaggeration and fantasy on the part of the script writer. Probably its because I was very lucky and largely sheltered from all these problems. I hate to imagine why people would be so cruel to another.

I want my daughters to be happy and carefree as long as possible. But I refuse to shelter them from the possible evils of the world. They have to know how to defend and protect themselves but then I want them to also realise that the beauty of the world is more prominant than the evils. I do not believe the words evil will not prevail because I think they are balanced. I only think that conscience is the only key to all the goodness. Well enuff of the pessimistic and gloomy stuff.

Alexis and Alyssa have woken up, now Alexis is sitting on my lap, looking smilingly at me once in a while. I just love to look at their smiles and hear their laughter. I thank God for these 2 little angels though sometimes in a blink of an eye they can turn into a Gremblin. But they warm up my hearts so much. I would love another baby in a few years time, hopefully a baby boy this time *smile* Looking at them growing, playing is just such a joy, life is so simple with them, no deception no lies (that will come later i guess hehe) . Through their eyes, everything is fun, through their eyes, I see things in new prospective. I learn to appreciate beauty of our environment, things that I have sort of become immune to as I grow up. I think that's why so many ppl hope that they wont grow up.

posted at [Saturday, February 26, 2005]

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